失忆症 Amnesia — yan-z.com

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amnesia

I get rid of memories selectively, as a form of self-salvation. A playback of the episodes I have lived renders no clue of who I think I am in the present. I guess many “me” reside in different parts of my memory. And the me of the present chooses to eliminate one of them.

Like the replicant interrogated in Blade Runner, the person I am now is subjected to the scathing gaze of others. And now he decides to disintegrate his existential consciousness, by sending that of the past into exile, to the horizon where it truly belongs.

我对过去记忆的遗忘是有选择性的，这更像是一种自我救赎。回看过去生活过的片段，我认为那不是现在的”我”。有很多个我驻扎在不同的记忆中。而现在的我选择抹去那段时间的我。

就像《银翼杀手》中审问复制人那样，我经历了一段他人对现在的我的审视，而现在的我选择分解自我的存在意识，把过去的我放逐回那本该属于他的天际。